06.26
I could have been a stand-up comedian if I hated myself more. I could have been a farmer if I liked sunlight more. I could have been an astronaut if I’d not had asthma. The astronaut thing is more about we watching Apollo 13 and realizing that they would never let me fly. Part of me would like to get into science/engineering public policy if I were not good at technical things. I could have gone into liberal arts if I were more sure of myself. I need the safety net of equations to back me up. Today KAUST sent out my preliminary schedule of classes for the fall. It had me as a communication and signal processing electrical engineer – the furthest thing in EE (electrical engineering) from what I do. I make things.
In my room I have up on my wall a calendar of the rest of summer that is similar to all of the previous calendars that I have made. It is a way of taking a non-literal step back and seeing what is left. So far I have almost finished LOST again through season 4. It goes faster as the episode count per season goes down. Season 2 is much more solid in hindsight. But enough LOST. That is my reward. The ability to do nothing is a great sign in my mind of personal wealth. Time is really what we spend. recently I went to the Electric Fetus – a record shop – to get a damn peace sign sticker – which as far as I have found no longer exists – and got a a moleskin watercolor because I like paying too much for things. It is nice, as expected. I have yet to cut off my ear, but also have not gotten on to oil-based paint…yet.♦